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Run.


Jasmine wants




Plead

talk to monster and monster won't eat you.




Victims


upcoming! fun schedule equivalent :)

x Love Matters (Sunday) it's a terrible movie. =(
x The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (TBA)
x Cycling (TBA) --> I miss cycling =(
x Current Affairs Workshop (10,11,12 March)
x Thieves Market OH SO FUN! =D OWL BAG! <333
x 12 Rounds <-- hmm, boring movie? zzzzz *retches at mention of popcorn*
x Visit Objectif <-- LOMO Embassy; lomos are expensive. =(
x ARTFRIEND WAS FUN; haahs, if you consider trying not to fold a piece of turquoise tracing paper and bring it home in one piece fun.
x Knowing (Saturday)
x chalet! (13-16 April) <3333333
x X-MEN ORIGINS: WOLVERINE FOUND :D

Dramas
x Witch Yoo Hee
x ToGetHer (ai jiu zhai yi qi)
x Boys over Flowers
x Grey's Anatomy S5 WAITING S6!!
x House S5 SEASON 6 HURRY OUT!
x Gokugen 1, 2, 3

Movies
x Coraline
x Knowing
x Potter
x X-Men Origins: WOLVERINE

Sewing Machine
x fabrics purchase GOT THEM! =D
x attempts to create: jewellery tools case, purses, passport cover, lappy cozy
x BOOK COVER! COMPLETE!

Photography
x amateur photography --> kinda suck at this huh? (well, ongoing)

OHLIQ
x finish selling those ragged pieces of clothes! (can I give up already? :S)

Jasmine/A Tinge of Aquamarine
x jewellery tuning
x photography
x conceptualise
x photoshop

Cooking
x attempt to arrange/attend cooking lessons once a week with my mother CLOSE to giving up on this. :P

Fleas
x visit the theives' market at sugei road (since I FINALLY found out how to get there :) (wed) <3333333333

Fitness
x once-twice weekly jogging :) hey, relieves stress and increases metabolism! very very good. =) (or others like tennis and cycling)--> these no time. =(
x GOAL: to lose weight to below **kg :D
x dance class
x GOLF! lol.
x kayaking!

CCA stuff
x NYAA Chapter
x SPIN@TRM - NATAS

WISH LIST
x Disderi 3 Lens Camera =) --> Spreeing it! :D
x headphones? Those vintage kind! Plus won't mess my hair! (note* my head is pretty big, pls make necessary allowances. :P) --> anyone want to bring me to Jaben/Stereo?
x Jewellery Case/Box for bringing to Taipei. =)
x Maybe you can get me stuffs for my OIAP. hahas, just please, don't give me a ricecooker. -_-
x New Glasses
x Contact Lens
x Nude Heels and Gladiator Sandals!--> waiting waiting waiting!!
x Casual Blazer!--> bought! but the seller superrr slow. :(
x Robot Necklace & whale earrings!--> think I may forgo these two, whale earrings not so nice, may switch to birdie instead! Robot mahs, idk...
x Polar Bear Wire Wrap!
x Two new bags I kan shang online. Should be getting it. Except dno when she ordering also... O_O
x External Harddisk :x

leave now and monster won't eat you.



Obituaries

Elle.
Saturday, November 03, 2007
I must get over it.

But first I must be determined. Because there is just no point in holding on. I do not see us going anywhere, and this has probably been going on for way too long. It has stagnated. Even though I know I am still very quite affected by him, I also recognise that I have to take steps to move away from it. Because it really is meaningless to go on. But how can you stop getting affected when you have finally moved away, but at the same time, still hold on to that little hope that a miracle will happen?

It all contradicts. Too much to make any sense. I hate it that I get affected, I guess I should have pulled away when I had the chance, but who was to know that this was the outcome? Or rather, who was to know that I would be so stubborn persistent? Actually, I know myself. >< Which sums it all up.

Distracting myself is a short-term solution. I know what you all will probably say and I myself know that I should not be doing that. But c'mon, I'm just not ready yet, ready for confrontation. I simply cannot face up to the situation as yet and thus, really cannot face it and move on. It will have to hold for now.

And while that is on hold, we still have to get on with life now don't we? Thus, you see me, still happy and cheery and all, all hyped up about events, but now you will know, that when I'm left alone, my whole world just comes crashing down. and that's just sad, but there's nothing else I can do, except fake a smile in the face of this destruction.

okay, I know I sound really emotional, but please don't come asking me a lot of questions. I just needed a place to rant. ><